Psalm 38:13 I am like a deaf person; I do not hear. I am like a speechless person who does not open his mouth.
Psalm 38:14 I am like a man who does not hear and has no arguments in his mouth
Psalm 38:15 because I put my hope in you, Yahveh; you will answer me, my Lord, my God.
Psalm 38:16 You see, I said, “Don’t let them be happy over me – those who are arrogant toward me when I stumble”
Psalm 38:17 because I am about to fall, and my time of anguish is constantly with me.
Psalm 38:18 So I confess my violation; I am anxious because of my sin.
Psalm 38:19 But my enemies are vigorous and powerful; many hate me for no reason.
Psalm 38:20 Those who repay evil for good attack me for chasing after good.
do not go quietly
The psalmist has sinned and does not feel worthy of deliverance. In fact, he is ready to remain mute before God and take his punishment, even if his fall is to the death. But something changes his mind. He thinks about those enemies of his who are also enemies of his God. The thought is that his downfall and ultimate disgrace will give those enemies more ammunition in their war against God.
So, he who was content to fade away without words decides to open his mouth and confess his violation. God gets more glory when the sinner repents and the door is opened for restoration.
If you think you have offended God and you are on your way out, don’t go quietly. Come back to him with a confession. God does not want to destroy you. He wants to restore you.
Lord, we choose to come back, not to go quietly.