let down

Posted on November 2, 2015 by Jefferson Vann

WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU WHEN NOTHING HAPPENS?

November 2015 (2)Mark 11:7-11

7 Then they brought the colt to Jesus and placed their cloaks on it; and he sat on it. 8 Many people spread their cloaks on the road, and others spread leafy branches that they had cut off in the woods. 9 Then those who went ahead and those who followed were shouting, “Hosanna! Blessed is the one who comes in the name of the Lord! 10 Blessed is the coming kingdom of our father David! Hosanna in the highest!” 11 Then he entered Jerusalem and went into the temple; and when he had looked around at everything, since it was already late, he went out to Bethany with the twelve.

let down

It’s one of those scenes in Scripture that makes you slow down and squint a little, as if a hidden detail must be tucked between the lines. Everything leading up to the moment feels charged with promise. The crowd is alive with celebration. The road has been prepared with care and reverence. Voices rise, branches fall, and the whole atmosphere seems to hum with the expectation that something dramatic is about to unfold.

And then… nothing.
Jesus steps into the temple, looks around quietly, and walks back out. No miracle. No confrontation. No sermon. Just a brief survey of the room and a departure. The day’s purpose was simply to fulfill a small prophecy, a quiet thread in a much larger tapestry. The big moments—the ones that shake the world—are still ahead.

There are days in our service to God that feel exactly like that. You pour yourself into a ministry effort, a conversation, a project, a moment you’ve prayed over and prepared for. You expect God to move in a way that feels unmistakable. And when the dust settles, you’re left with a sense of letdown, wondering if you misread the moment or missed the miracle.

But God is not scolding you with silence. He is not withholding His presence because your effort was lacking. Sometimes the Lord simply chooses to work in ways that don’t match our expectations. Sometimes the day is about a small obedience, a quiet fulfillment, a step that prepares the way for something greater later on. His timing is never off. His purposes are never delayed. He is simply operating on a calendar far wiser than ours.

So we learn to trust Him in the anticlimax, in the quiet aftermath, in the days that feel unfinished. We learn to believe that He is still moving even when the moment feels still.

LORD, give us the wisdom to let Your calendar prevail over ours, and the faith to rest in Your timing even when the day feels small.

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commissioned colt

Posted on November 1, 2015 by Jefferson Vann

ARE YOU PREPARED TO BE USEFUL TO JESUS?

November 2015 (1)Mark 11:1-6

1 When they were approaching Jerusalem, at Bethphage and Bethany, near the Mount of Olives, he sent two of his disciples 2 and said to them, “Go into the village ahead of you, and as soon as you enter it, you will find a colt tied there who has not yet been ridden; untie it and bring it. 3 If anyone says to you, ‘Why are you doing this?’ just say this, ‘our Lord needs it and will send it back here soon.'” 4 They went away and found a colt tied near a door, outside in the street. As they were untying it, 5 some of the bystanders said to them, “What are you doing, untying the colt?” 6 So, they told them what Jesus had said; and they allowed them to take it.

commissioned colt

The colt stood there at the edge of the city—ordinary, unnoticed, tied up like it had been every other day of its life. Yet when the word came that the Lord needed it, something shifted. The people watching didn’t argue or hesitate; they simply released it, as though they sensed that even the smallest creature can be swept into God’s great story when the moment arrives. That colt didn’t suddenly gain wisdom or strength. It didn’t become noble or heroic. It was simply available at the exact moment Jesus chose to ride. Scripture never tells us what became of it afterward, but its brief appearance has echoed through centuries because, for one sacred moment, it carried the King.

When I look back over my own journey, I find myself identifying with that humble animal more than with any of the more celebrated figures in the New Testament. I’m not the strategist, the miracle worker, or the bold preacher. I’m the creature who happened to be standing in the right place when the Lord tugged at the rope. And in that moment—however brief, however quiet—I was useful to Him. That alone feels like grace.

So I pray with open hands: Lord, when You call, untie whatever keeps us still. Loosen the knots of fear, hesitation, or self‑doubt. Make us ready to move when You speak, even if the task is simple, even if our part is small. Use us for Your glory, and let us find joy in being carried along by Your purpose.

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annoyance or opportunity

Posted on October 31, 2015 by Jefferson Vann

DO YOU SEE WHAT THE NEEDY REALLY ARE?

October 2015 (31)Mark 10:46-52

46 Then they came into Jericho. While he and his disciples and a large crowd were leaving Jericho, Bartimaeus son of Timaeus, a blind beggar, was sitting by the roadside. 47 When he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to scream out and say, “Jesus, Son of David, have mercy on me!” 48 Many harshly ordered him to shut up, but he screamed out even louder, “Son of David, have mercy on me!” 49 Jesus stood still and said, “Call him here.” And they called the blind man, saying to him, “Take courage; get up, he is calling you.” 50 Then, throwing off his cloak, he jumped up and came to Jesus. 51 Then Jesus said to him, “What do you want me to do for you?” The blind man said to him, “My great one,[1] that I may see again.” 52 Jesus said to him, “Go; your faith has made you well.” Just then he saw again and followed him on the road.

annoyance or opportunity

Jesus had just finished redefining leadership for His apostles—pulling it out of the realm of power, status, and control, and rooting it instead in service, sacrifice, and preservation. And then, almost immediately, Mark shows us what that kind of leadership looks like in real time.

Enter Bartimaeus.

To the crowd, he was a nuisance. A distraction. An interruption to the important work Jesus was doing. They tried to silence him, to push him to the margins, to keep the “ministry” moving. But Jesus stopped. He didn’t see an interruption; He saw an opportunity. He didn’t see a problem; He saw a person. And in that moment, He demonstrated the very heart of the kingdom: restoring the broken, lifting the lowly, giving sight to the blind—literally and spiritually.

This is what servant leadership looks like. It is not measured by how efficiently we stay on schedule, or how well we protect our time, or how many people we manage. It is measured by how willing we are to stop for the Bartimaeuses in our path. The needy, the hurting, the overlooked—these are not obstacles to ministry. They are the ministry. They are the places where the kingdom breaks in. They are the moments when greatness is redefined.

Christian leadership is not about getting things done; it is about getting people restored. It is about seeing interruptions as invitations. It is about letting compassion override convenience. And it is about recognizing that every day, God places opportunities in our path to serve Him by serving someone who cannot repay us.

Lord, make us sensitive to the opportunities to serve You that You put in our way every day.

[1] Aramaic רבוני

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tyrant or slave

Posted on October 30, 2015 by Jefferson Vann

ARE YOU USING PEOPLE, OR SERVING THEM?

October 2015 (30)Mark 10:41-45

41 When the other ten heard this, they began to be irritated with James and John. 42 So Jesus called them and said to them, “You know that among the Gentiles those whom they recognize as their rulers lord it over them, and their grand ones are tyrants over them. 43 But it is not so among you; but whoever wishes to become grand among you must be your servant, 44 and whoever wishes to be first among you must be slave of everyone. 45 Because the Son of Man did not come to be served but to serve, and to give his soul as a release price to keep many from dying.”

tyrant or slave

Jesus’ question cuts straight through every illusion we carry about leadership. Would you rather be a tyrant over a few, or a servant to everyone? The world celebrates the first option. It rewards control, visibility, and authority. But Jesus turns the whole equation upside down. In His kingdom, leadership is not measured by how many people answer to you, but by how many people you are willing to serve.

The apostles needed that correction. They were imagining thrones, positions, and honor. Jesus pointed them instead to a cross. He showed them that the Son of Man did not come to be served but to serve, and to give His life as a ransom for many. His leadership preserved others at the cost of Himself. That is the pattern He sets for every disciple who would lead in His name.

Christian leadership is not about control. It is not about influence for its own sake. It is not about building a platform or protecting a position. It is about sacrifice—pouring yourself out so that others may live, grow, and flourish. The real question is not “Who follows me?” but “Whom am I preserving by my service?” That is the measure Jesus uses.

Lord, make us leaders who serve to preserve.

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pushing the envelope

Posted on October 29, 2015 by Jefferson Vann

WHO IS REALLY SOVEREIGN IN YOUR LIFE?

October 2015 (29)Mark 10:35-40

35 James and John, the sons of Zebedee, approached him and said to him, “Teacher, we want you to do for us whatever we ask from you.” 36 And he said to them, “What is it you want [me] to do for you?” 37 So they said to him, “Grant us permission to sit, one at your right hand and one at your left, in your glory.” 38 But Jesus said to them, “You do not know what you are asking. Are you able to drink the cup that I drink, or be baptized with the baptism that I am to be baptized with?” 39 They replied, “We are able.” Then Jesus said to them, ” You will drink the cup that I drink; and you will be baptized with the baptism with which I am to be baptized,; 40 but to sit at my right hand or at my left is not mine to grant, but it is for those it has been prepared for.”

pushing the envelope

James and John weren’t content simply to be part of the greatest movement in human history. Being apostles wasn’t enough. Being close to Jesus wasn’t enough. They wanted the seats of honor, the places of glory, the positions that would set them above the rest. Their ambition feels very modern. We live in a world that constantly whispers, “Aim higher. Push further. Don’t settle. You deserve more.” And sometimes that whisper slips into our spiritual life too.

But Jesus gently—and firmly—showed them that some things are not theirs to seek. Some destinies are fixed by the Father. Some prayers, no matter how earnest or well‑intentioned, will not be answered the way we want. Not because God is stingy, but because He is sovereign. He knows what we cannot know. He sees what we cannot see. And He shapes our future according to wisdom far deeper than our ambition.

James and John weren’t wrong to desire closeness to Jesus. But they had to learn that closeness is not the same as control. Following Christ means surrendering the illusion that we can script our own greatness. It means trusting that God’s plan—even when it limits us—is better than our own dreams. It means letting Him be the One who assigns the seats, writes the story, and determines the outcome.

Lord, we surrender our sovereignty to Yours.

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the other future

Posted on October 28, 2015 by Jefferson Vann

DO YOU REALLY WANT TO KNOW WHAT HAPPENS TOMORROW?

October 2015 (28)Mark 10:32-34

32 They were on the road, going up to Jerusalem, and Jesus was walking ahead of them; they were confused, and those who followed were afraid. He took the twelve aside again and began to tell them what was about to happen to him, 33 saying, “Watch, we are going up to Jerusalem, and the Son of Man will be handed over to the chief priests and the scribes, and they will condemn him to death; then they will hand him over to the Gentiles; 34 they will mock him, and spit upon him, and flog him, and kill him; and after three days he will be raised again.”

the other future

Most of us love imagining the bright possibilities ahead, but we instinctively turn away from the shadows. The apostles were no different. They could dream about the kingdom with ease, but the cross was another matter. It didn’t fit their hopes, their expectations, or their theology. They wanted glory without grief, triumph without tragedy.

But Jesus loved them too much to let them cling to illusions. He told them plainly—again and again—that suffering was part of the path. Not because He wanted to frighten them, but because He wanted them ready. He knew that discipleship is not a straight line upward. It is a road with both sunlight and storm, both joy and sorrow, both resurrection and crucifixion. And He wanted them to face the future with eyes open and hearts anchored.

I love time‑travel stories. We’re fascinated by what might come, but we don’t really want to know everything. Jesus doesn’t give us everything. But He gives us enough. Enough to trust Him. Enough to prepare. Enough to walk forward without fear, even when the path includes thorns.

Lord, ready us for our future—both the good things and the bad.

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grace is not fair

Posted on October 27, 2015 by Jefferson Vann

WHAT CAN WE EXPECT TO GET FOR FOLLOWING JESUS?

October 2015 (27)Mark 10:28-31

28 Peter started saying to him, “Notice, we have left everything and followed you.” 29 Jesus said, ” I guarantee you, there is no one who has left a house or brothers or sisters or a mother or a father or children or fields, for my sake and for the sake of the excellent message, 30 who will not welcome a hundredfold now in this age– houses, brothers and sisters, mothers and children, and fields with persecutions– and in the age to come eternal life. 31 But many who are first will be last, and the last will be first.”

grace is not fair

The disciples’ world had just been turned upside down. They had assumed—like many in their culture—that wealth was a sign of divine approval. If someone was prosperous, surely God was smiling on them. And if the wealthy were closest to God’s blessing, then following Jesus must eventually lead to the same kind of blessing. It was a tidy equation: invest in Jesus, reap success.

Then Jesus shattered that equation. He said it was hard for the wealthy to enter the kingdom. Not because wealth is evil, but because it so easily becomes a substitute for trust. The disciples were stunned. If the people who seemed to have life figured out were actually at a disadvantage spiritually, then what hope was left for anyone?

Peter voiced the question everyone was thinking: “What about us? We’ve left everything. Doesn’t that count for something?” Jesus didn’t rebuke him. He acknowledged that every sacrifice made for the kingdom matters. Nothing given up for Christ is wasted. But He added two essential truths: persecution will accompany blessing, and the kingdom does not operate on a simple investment‑to‑dividend ratio. The first may be last. The last may be first. God’s rewards do not follow human math.

The point is not to build our own kingdom, but Christ’s. Not to accumulate, but to serve. Not to measure outcomes, but to remain faithful. When we focus on expanding His kingdom, our hearts stay free from the gravitational pull of wealth and self‑interest.

Lord, help us to focus on expanding Your kingdom, not our bank accounts.

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figuring life out

Posted on October 26, 2015 by Jefferson Vann

IF YOU DON’T NEED GOD, YOU WILL NEVER FIND HIM

October 2015 (26)Mark 10:23-27

23 Then Jesus looked around and said to his disciples, “How tough it will be for those who have wealth to enter the kingdom of God!” 24 And the disciples were confused by his words. But Jesus said to them again, “Children, how tough it is to enter the kingdom of God! 25 It is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.” 26 They were very much shocked and said to one another, “Then who can be saved?” 27 Jesus looked at them and said, “For men it is impossible, but not for God; because all things are possible for God.”

The disciples had grown up believing what many still assume today—that wealth is a sign of God’s approval. If someone had resources, influence, and stability, surely that meant they had figured life out. Surely that meant they were on the fast track to the kingdom. But Jesus shattered that assumption. When the wealthy young man walked away, and Jesus commented on how hard it is for the rich to enter the kingdom, the disciples were stunned. If he couldn’t make it, who possibly could?

Their shock makes sense. They were watching the collapse of a worldview. Wealth wasn’t a shortcut to salvation; it was often an obstacle. Not because money is evil, but because it can so easily become the thing we trust instead of God. The disciples suddenly realized that if the “most qualified” candidate couldn’t enter the kingdom on his own terms, then no one could. And that was exactly Jesus’ point.

This is where Jesus reveals the level ground of grace. Entrance into the next life is not hard—it is impossible. Impossible for the wealthy. Impossible for the poor. Impossible for the moral, the disciplined, the religious, the sincere. Impossible for everyone… except by the mercy of God. Salvation is not achieved; it is received. It is not earned; it is given. The only people who enter the kingdom are those who come empty‑handed.

That is what everyone must “figure out.” The gospel is not a reward for the competent but a rescue for the helpless. And that is good news for all of us—especially for those who think they don’t need it.

Lord, we thank You for Your saving grace, and ask You to help us share the good news of Your grace—even with those who believe they do not need it.

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missing one

Posted on October 25, 2015 by Jefferson Vann

October 2015 (25)Mark 10:17-22

17 While he was setting out on a journey, a man ran up and knelt before him, and asked him, “Good Teacher, what do I have to do so I will inherit eternal life?” 18 Jesus said to him, “Why are you calling me good? No one is good other than the one God. 19 You know the commandments: ‘Do not murder; Do not commit adultery; Do not steal; Do not bear false witness; Do not defraud; Honour your father and mother.'”[1] 20 He said to him, “Teacher, I have kept all these since I was young.” 21 Jesus, looking at him, loved him and said, “You are missing one; go, sell what you own, and give the money to the poor, and you will have treasure in the sky; then come, follow me.” 22 When he heard this, he was shocked and went away grieving, because he had many possessions.

missing one

Any pastor today would have been thrilled to welcome this young man into the church. He had the résumé we dream about—morally disciplined, spiritually earnest, financially capable, and eager to serve. He wasn’t hiding secret sins. He wasn’t careless or immature. He was the kind of person we would immediately imagine as a leader, a donor, a pillar of the community. On paper, he looked like the perfect disciple.

But Jesus didn’t look at the paper. He looked at the heart. And He saw the one thing the young man had never surrendered—the one strength he trusted more than God, the one area he still controlled, the one identity he refused to loosen his grip on. For this man, it was wealth. Not because wealth is evil, but because it had become the place where he found security, identity, and power. Jesus wasn’t trying to impoverish him; He was trying to free him. But the young man couldn’t imagine life without the thing he trusted most.

And that is where the story becomes uncomfortably universal. Most of us don’t have great wealth, so we assume we’re safe from this danger. But Jesus’ challenge wasn’t really about money. It was about surrender. Every one of us has something we cling to—some strength, some talent, some dream, some relationship, some reputation, some comfort—that we quietly treat as untouchable. We may have nothing to sell, but we may still have something we refuse to yield.

Jesus puts His finger on that one thing not to shame us, but to liberate us. He wants disciples, not managers. He wants followers, not people negotiating the terms of their obedience. And He knows that the one thing we hold back is often the very thing that keeps us from serving Him fully and loving others freely.

Lord, give us the courage to surrender the one thing we hold on to—the thing that keeps us from serving You and others.

[1] Exodus 20:12-16; Deuteronomy 5:16-20.

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wasted ministry

Posted on October 24, 2015 by Jefferson Vann

October 2015 (24)Mark 10:13-16

13 People were also bringing little children to him so that he might touch them; and the disciples rebuked them. 14 But when Jesus saw this, he was indignant and said to them, “Allow the little children come to me; do not prevent them; because the kingdom of God is made of people like these. 15 I guarantee you, whoever does not welcome the kingdom of God like a little child does will never enter it.” 16 And he took them up in his arms, laid his hands on them, and blessed them.

wasted ministry

 

The disciples weren’t trying to be cruel when they turned the children away. They simply assumed Jesus had more important work to do—teaching adults, debating Pharisees, shaping future leaders. Children, in their minds, couldn’t evaluate doctrine, couldn’t contribute strategically, couldn’t advance the mission. Why “waste” the Rabbi’s time on those who couldn’t yet understand?

But Jesus used that very moment to teach them something essential about the kingdom. The kingdom is not received through analysis, caution, or guarded skepticism. It is welcomed the way a child welcomes a gift—open‑handed, curious, eager, unembarrassed. Logic says, “Be careful. Don’t commit too quickly. It might not be true.” But childlike faith says, “I want that!” And in this case, the child is right. There is nothing false in Christ’s claims, nothing deceptive in His promises, nothing unstable in His word. Following Him is not a leap into the dark; it is a step into the light.

Yet if we wait until every question is answered and every doubt is resolved, we may wait too long. The heart can harden. Fear can calcify. False teaching can build layers of resistance. That is why, in every generation, most people come to Christ when they are young. Before cynicism forms. Before wounds deepen. Before the world teaches them to distrust what is good. Children jump in—and Jesus honors that.

So time spent ministering to the young is never wasted. It is planting seed in the most fertile soil. It is welcoming the kingdom the way Jesus told us to—without reservation, without hesitation, without the protective armor of adulthood.

Lord, show us how to reach the young with the gospel, and show us how to welcome Your kingdom without reservation.

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